I felt like I was in the dark. There was no Life left for me. Even after leaving him, I was still stuck, attached to him, required to continue to communicate on some level.

I felt like my life was over, and that’s it.

Esther Macner was an invaluable resource. She connected me with all the resources I needed to receive my annulment. She helped me contact the Bais Din, the Rabbis, and ultimately she helped me with the documents and paperwork I needed for the International Bais Din.

The Rabbi who took my case said, “I’ve been doing this for 30 years and I have never seen this level of abuse. This is beyond abuse. What you have suffered is rare and almost unheard of.”

That was very validating for me.

I had recorded some of the Voice Mails he left me. After listening to five of them, the Bais Din asked me to turn it off.

They ruled that the marriage was never valid and I received an annulment.

Completely annulled. According to the International Bais Din, I have never been married to that man and I can even marry a Kohen.

I got the annulment in the middle of the day, but I shrieked at the office and sobbed my eyes out; I was so overcome with joy.

There is nobody like Hashem.

Only He knows how much I suffered. All He wanted was for me to work on getting through my fears.

I was so incredibly fearful of that man. I was really scared of him.

Only Hashem knows how many hits I’ve sustained. 

I felt like my fear was leaving me. 

I felt Freedom.

I felt Free.

I felt like the weight of the world was lifted from my heart.

There is still plenty of Life left out there for me!

And I feel like Hashem is with me, always, as I walk ahead.

- shared by recently freed agunah